Well, I 've been sitting at this computer, writing emails, reading articles and getting lost in my thoughts (while my internet time passes by). What did I learn from this trip? Where did it lead me? What do I expect when I get home? Where do I go next. I've been thinking about the 9-5, school, money, home and God. I come back to this urge for adventure and travel. To go where not many dare to go, to share Gods love to those who haven't tasted it first hand. To be bitten by snakes and not harmed. To stand before authorities and testify. To give up my all, so that Thee All, will be known and glorified. Seeing all that he has done for me is this too much to give? I look and wonder if my adventure urges are just selfish ambitions and maybe I should "settle down". People think that God's will is always against what they want and always for what they can't stand.(which for me is to "settle down", anytime soon) Not everyone wants to go into the unknown. Not everyone thirsts for adventure. Not everyone has a love for randomness and chaos. Me, I want to go. I want to travel. But I want it to be for God. Do what I can, when I can do it. I am young, I am single and I healthy. Why not? Go where others can't for them. Allow others to work through me and be the parts of the body they are supposed to be. So I dont know what I am going to do. But I pray when "it" comes, that I will have the courage to step out and do it. I was fearing the future of the unknown. But now I am stoked. If I love God, follow him and love others with all that I am. Why not? Africa? East Europe? Canada? Middle East? Asia?... Carpenter? Musician? Student? Missionary? Pastor? The options are limitless. All so tempting! Can I do them all? All at the same time? I have to keep reminding myself that I am only 21. But life is so short! And I dont know when it will end! I pray that it is all not in vanity. That it wont all be in vain. That it will be done with passion and urgency, with percission and accuracy, with love and patients, with holiness and honour, with pure joy and endurance and with faith and hope! With God as my head, with others as better then myself and with me as servant. So I sit here... And I tell you to go, to do and to be! To my dear loved ones, I hope to see you all soon and may God, my God and I hope your God, give you what you truly need. (i hope that all of you who read this feel as a loved one, and if not, lets get to know eachother) Peace be with you all! Send more workers out into the fields Lord! May your will be done! God, you are amazing and I just ask to know your love more and more and to have glimpses of your glory! | 
